Good things

I'm going to go out on a limb and say today is the best that I've felt since I started my recovery. It's been two weeks and a day. I think I'm getting the hang of it. I've found some black teas that I enjoy almost as much as coffee. I don't get the same enjoyment as I did from my beloved Starbucks lattes, but I can live with it.

I really like Celestial Seasonsings Morning Thunder, and I usually mix it with Roastaroma. I like the taste of the Roastaroma on its own but it doesn't have caffiene, so I mix it with the Morning Thunder which has the caffiene but the flavor isn't as rich. So this way I get both, and it gets a nice bold, rich flavor that is almost like coffee. I also have been drinking Dandy Blend which I like a lot. It tastes the most like coffee, but it doesn't have caffiene so I mix it with black tea. And the dandelion is good for my liver.

Today I did discover an issue with my tea habit. I've been using a coconut milk coffee creamer in my tea. It's french vanilla flavor. I like the sweetness. I am used to using tons of sugar or agave in my coffee or tea. I had read the ingredients of the creamer before and I somehow missed the "organic evaporated cane juice" listed on it. Maybe I was just fooling myself into thinking it was OK to drink it. But no, organic evaporated cane juice is SUGAR. Do not be fooled. There's also guar gum and xanthan gum in it which I know I shouldn't have because they are too processed and they are made from corn. No good. There's also natural flavoring in it, which is also no good.

But y'know, it's literally the one packaged, processed food I eat. I am drinking a lot of tea so I guess it adds up, but probably only to about 5 tablespoons of it a day. It's really not a lot. I'm not going to drive myself crazy about it now. I'm going to try to use the plain flavor instead of the french vanilla flavor, and see if I can get used to less sweetness. I'm sure my taste buds will adjust.

Anyway. I was talking about how my day was, wasn't I? Yes. I had work this morning, and although I didn't get a lot of sleep last night, I actually woke up (at 5AM, no less) perfectly refreshed and ready to go. I'm not sure that's ever happened to me. I felt good all through my shift at work, even though I was bored most of the time. I kept myself occupied. I walked on the treadmill for an hour, broken up into a 20 minute walk and 40 minute walk. I jogged a little bit. It was good. I got some stuff done when I got home, then I took a nap. Usually when I wake up from my naps I am still groggy and crabby and mean. I woke up and I was fine. Awake and alert and ready to continue my day.

So this is a taste of how I will fell all the time. Once my body is healthy and has gotten rid of all the built up toxins, this is what I have to look forward to. I like it.